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Monday, August 15, 2011

Casey Anthony gets a six figure book deal. This is your fault.

                It was recently announced the the acquitted ( suspected babykiller) Casey Anthony would be writing a book and receiving a large amount of money for it.  “Why would anyone offer her that?” you may be asking yourself.  The answer: Because it will be profitable.  And you let it happen. 
"Wait just a minute!" you might be saying to yourself.  "I would never give someone like that a book deal!  I dont have that kind of power, sir!" You may follow up with. 

                   Well, did you post anything on your facebook about the verdict outcome?  Your fault.  Did you watch any of the trial, or listen to it on the radio?  Your fault. Did you have discussions about it with your friends? Your fault.  Now, I am not in any way commenting here on her guilt or innocence.  She was found innocent in a court of law.  Let it be, leave her alone.  Had the media not latched onto this like a ratings vampire, you never would have even known about her.  There are trials like this happening all over the world more often than anyone would ever like to admit. Yes, by being a (even a small) part of the sideshow that the trial became you essentially voted to pay her a large sum of money to write some books. And maybe even reap the benefits from a movie deal.  You made her rich.  You yourself may not go out and buy her books… but I promise you there are at least a couple million people who will.  Meaning the venture will be a profitable one for the publisher.  In the end, they don’t care about the trial, or the baby, Casey Anthony, or even whether or not she is guilty or innocent.  They care about the fact that you (The American public) showed to them they could make money by expoiting the situation.  And that is what they will be doing.  Myself; I wasn’t really even aware there was a trial going on, or what it was about until the day my facebook exploded with outrage at its outcome. One hundred  full pages of nothing but thoughts and flash rage about her and the events.  I decided at that point to look up who the fuck she was and what she had just been acquitted of. I also decided I could not care any less at that point, than I did before learning of it.
                So congratulate yourself.  You just paid someone you hate a lot of money to tell her story by simply taking part in its telling. As for Casey Anthony, well she is now the embodiment of the American Dream.  Well done Casey Anthony.  You just won the game. 

Monday, May 23, 2011



“The only thing we have to fear; is fear itself”

          I don’t think truer words have ever been spoken.   When you think about why you do the things you do, and more importantly why you don’t do the things you want to doI believe the resounding answer within most human beings is “fear”.  The same could even be said about animals.  Why does [this animal] have [this camouflage]?  Well, over the years it has a fear based evolution.  It fears being [eaten] therefore it [hides].  You fear… what?

       Jail:  The most basic of all fear based laws.  “Don’t be bad or you WILL go to jail, and you WILL be raped in the ass (or by a fist, depends on your sex).” 

       Hell:  That hot place that “god” or GOD or God or G*D will send you if you “Sin” or  SIN or sin or S*N.  The place where all the murderers and rapists and thieves and jaywalkers and speeders and free thinkers and lovers etc… etc… etc… go.  The bad place.  The aich ee double hockey sticks. 

       Death:  Ah, the mother of all fears.  The end.  The shining white light, the long tunnel, the eternity of nothing and the rotting in the ground; encased in an expensive box.    The worst thing that could possibly happen as a result of anything.  (With the exception of suicide where it is after all the intended goal, and would [for the participant] be means for a celebration were they not dead after a successful go of it). 

       Loneliness: Unloved, unwanted, tail between the legs dick in your hand (Hand in the ice cream (again depending on your sex)) kind of existence.  You own a phone, but only use it once every five days and that is when you call some poor fucker for some tech support on something you don’t even own just to have some sort of human contact, and you keep that poor fucker on the phone for an hour and a half. 

       There are many more, but the 4 above serve their purpose in illustrating the point.

Somewhere, some men [woman?] or [Womyn?] have decided (for you) that this and that is a bad or immoral thing to do.  For the most part you and I would likely agree.

Example:  Is it wrong to have anal sex with a three year old when you are thirty years old? Fuck yes!  A resonating “Fuck yes” echoes across the world, bounces off the moon and slams back into the earth to echo some more.  But let us [me?] dissect that statement.  Why is it wrong?  At Its most basic roots, it is wrong because the older party would be taking advantage of the younger party, who does not yet know any better.  And why does the younger party [not] know any better?  Let us say: a lack of experience.  This statement holds true of any individual(s) that use power or force or FEAR to control or [take advantage] of another individual(s),  and when I say “power”, when I say “ force”, when I say “Fear”...  Which organizations (in which you will find in [almost] every civilized society) are the first to pop into your mind?   The Government?  Yes.  The Police?  Yes.  Religion? Yes.  Your boss? Yes. And in some instances (mostly America) Large corporations, or “Big Business” and/or “The Bank” (See: Money). Yes, an inanimate piece of paper that holds no real value has power unimaginable over you. 

These are the people that can send you to jail.  These are the people that make your decisions for you.  These are the people that for some fucking reason govern our lives to an uncomfortable extent.  These are the people that send you to “hell” (If you believe in that sort of thing).  Which I do, only it is merely the word and its meaning that I believe in.  Not the fictional basement of fire where a man in red tights and a hot poker has his way with your ass all the live long day.  That is more something you will get in Amsterdam.  And here is the worst part of it all.  The human race is such an uncontrollable monster, such a sick, twisted, writhing mound of seething, wretched fucks!  That we need SOMEone to watch over us.  Someone has to be there to make sure this guy doesn’t steal your shit.  Or that guy doesn’t have sex with this 3 year old.  Or this guy doesn’t just go ahead and murder the lot of you, regardless of how much you may deserve it. 

So fear is a good thing right?  No.  It is not.  Mainly, taught fear is the worst.  A fear that lives in you, simply because you have been raised with no other thought than that it is scary or “bad” or “horrible”.  Cases in point:  Nazi’s, The KKK, The Black Panthers, Bigotry, Homophobia, Racism, Sexism, And any other “ism”.  I myself had a taught fear.  A taught hate.  And it is pointed at Women or [Womyn?]. For _____ years of my life I tried and tried to be a committed loving boyfriend/ fiancĂ©.  But what I got for it was nothing but grief, anger, and infidelity.  Perhaps had this been merely ONE woman [womyn] I would let it go as “A bad experience”.  But seeing as how it was EVERY woman [womyn]; I had been led to believe that “All women are cheaters, liars, and gold diggers.”  This is a biased thought/ fear and it is based solely on my experiences, not so much on actual fact, or science.  But I have overcome this fear and am now married.  And guess what?  We get along great and it is working.  But somewhere in the back of my head is an echo and I still have that slight fear that eventually it might go wrong.  I hope it does not, but an irrational fear is exactly that: irrational.

Let us [we] (me?) say that your first memory was that “Grass will kill you instantly”. Yes the soft wonderful plant that covers the ground in a luscious comfortable green way.  That stuff that we all love to lie in on a summer day and look up at the sky in or some other such sappy ass shit.    Let us say that “Grass” has been villainized by a cultures government to be the most evil that that has ever come into existence.  So much so that all “Grass” has been eradicated and the sight of it alone instills a panic attack and immediate fear for loss of life and limb followed by the irrigating of the bowels in the most horrible way.  THAT kind of fear.  Realize now that to you and me, that is one of the most absurd things we could imagine.  But for those who were Taught that irrational fear, it is as real as the grass itself is.  Imagine hearing of how an individual was deathly afraid of clouds, or perhaps dandelions.  This is irrational, and overtly silly… to YOU.  But to that individual, this fear of this or that is as real as the air we breathe, and equally as scary.  Now apply that rationale to these ideas:

       Racism
       Sexism
       Authority
       Religion
       Anarchy
       Law
       Work
       Money
       Love
       Hate
       [insert your own ideal here]
      
          What do you get?  Complete insanity and irrationality.  You get the world as it is.  The world we live in.  A fear mongering bastard child of evolution [intelligent design?]. Humans walking around fighting each other. Killing each other because their fears have become mismatched.  "You don't fear the same hell as I do, so I must murder you to show you how real my hell is."  You get a media that caters strictly to those fears without bias.  Yes we see the bias they want us to see. Example:  Fox news is biased to the "Right". NPR is biased to the "Left".  But what is funny about this is, Fox news is owned by the same parent company that owns the Fox network.  The television channel that airs shows that are seemingly VERY biased to the "Left".  What they are doing is: making fun of you. Or more precisely: Taking advantage of your fears and beliefs,   They saw an opportunity to make some money off the "Right" because the "Right" was not very well represented in the media.  So they spread their taught fears of the "Left" and all of their views.  But the owners don't share those beliefs.  They are using your fears against you to their own benefit and profit.  They are lying to you, and you eat it up like a bag of hateful jellybeans, Pink ones to be exact. 
          
          You have been taught that being homeless is not only a terrible affliction to yourself, but to your society as well.  When I see it as camping.  Some see it as freedom.  There are those that have chosen to be homeless.  And there are those that are homeless because they have let their fear get the better of them and succumb to things that will help them forget their fears.  Their fears got the better of them SO well, that they no longer even have a use for them.  You have been taught that having no money equals instant misery.  You have been taught that your government has you in their best interest and does what it can for your benefit.  You have been taught that “god” or GOD or God or G*D created the earth and heavens and requires your worship.  You have been taught to live your life based in one fear or another placing you in direct need to live under the watchful eye of another. Do you want to know what they call people who have overcome their fears?  “Strong”.  However, the people in power are not fearless.  In fact, their biggest fear is losing the power they have gained from abandoning their other fears.
          
          So;  “The only thing to fear, is fear itself”.  What does this mean to you?  We spend our lives as humans searching for meaning and purpose.  When it is so obvious, yet our installed taught fears keep it in a blind spot.  The meaning of life; is to live it.  Not to live it by the terms of another.  Not to live in misery of a vengeful god.  Not to live it in poverty.  Are you hungry?  Do something about it.  Are you unhappy?  The only person in the verse that has the power to fix it is you.

Be ALIVE, Not afraid.  

Tuesday, February 8, 2011



Precious Things II:  Hunted
            A funeral was being held.  Not a person came. A congregation of twisted smoking  machines lowered the body of a man named Trevor six feet into the earth.  They filled the hole in with dirt, and they left. 
            Trevor lay motionless, lifeless in his coffin.  The machines were not there to help him anymore.  They had cared for him for decades, and now  they had moved on.

“…the dead remain in the waking world.” 

Trevor gasped, his eyes opened.  He saw nothing but dark. He heard nothing but the deafening hiss of silence.  Panic stricken he pounded and scratched at the inside of the coffin lid.  Punched the barrier in front of him until his hands felt sticky. [Blood] hinted his subconscious. Ignoring it he  started screaming as loud as he could, calling to the machines to let him out, to help him.  Still punching, scratching, pounding, kicking. The inside of the coffin was hot and sticky, Trevor began to hyperventilate. If he died again, would he just keep coming back, and dying, then coming back, and immediately dying?  A never ending cycle of torment and suffocation.  Once the air was used, there would be no more.  Would he repeatedly awake to pain for the rest of eternity?  The Machines should have known better.  Why did they believe it this time?  Trevor had died so many times, they always waited, never believing he was truly gone. 
            As Trevor lie in his dark tomb, hope faded quickly.  He became light headed due to the lack of oxygen.  His breath was shallow, his heart rate slowed.  But the machines did not know this. They no longer monitored him, they no longer cared to. The experiment of Trevor was over. Then; knocking.  Once… twice… silence lifts him.  His hopes start to rise.  The machines had come to save him, they realized they made a grave mistake. His subconscious wondered if his pun was intended.  He ignored it. Once… twice… again and the stillness exits. The lid flies off the coffin and a blinding rush of sunlight smashes him in the face.  Trevor squints, reaches his arms out to embrace his savior, and tries to make out the shape that stands before him through the water forming in his eyes.  But the light was too much, too painful.  He covers his eyes with his hands and screws up his face in pain. The only noise he can seem to make is a guttural squeal through clenched teeth.
            “Foolish man-pig,” Says the shape in a deep threatening shriek. “you’ve let yourself go too far this time…” Underlining his disappointment with a sigh.  “It’s out of our hands now.”
            “W-w-w-what is?  W-who’s hands? My hands?  No, that makes no sense…” stammered Trevor in between gasps and squeals.
            Two hands grab Trevor by his one collar and lift him out of the coffin. “Squealing man,” rattled the voice “why do you make such… noises?”  Trevor peeked out from behind his hands, not only was he out of the hole, he was being held six feet above where the hole began, from the ground.  He tried to look at the shape again.  It was keeping its back to the sun.  This time Trevor could see the silhouette of a man, or at least a man shaped being.  It shook him by his collar, his limp legs swaying and dangling ridiculously. “We had so much more to show you.”  It grumbled and tossed him to the ground.  Trevor landed hard on the leaf blanketed ground a few feet from his grave.  The air had been knocked out of him and he struggled to breathe. His cheek could feel the leaves against it, his eyes began to adjust and he saw the hole he had just been pulled from.  It took all of his strength to get to his hands and knees, and through slightly blurry eyes he surveyed his surroundings.  Nothing but bare autumn trees and a ground covered in colored leaves.  Where was the house?  Where were the machines?  Where was… he?  He shut his eyes again and wondered how long he had lay in his grave before he awoke.  He wondered if the machines had waited for him to come back before giving up.  He wondered how long had passed since his last memory.  He opened his eyes again, they ached, not yet fully adjusted to the light.  He could only see a few feet, glancing behind him, Trevor saw a shape larger than a tree. It was the house.  The machines had buried him in the backyard of the very house they kept him in. He stood up and looked around.  He was surrounded by ten, maybe thirteen other graves.  All empty.  How many times had they buried him?  “Ignore these terrible lies.” He said to himself.  He looked around for the figure that pulled him out of the grave. 

[Nowhere]

Trevor limped to the house, to the back door but it was locked.  He made his way around to the front, and the side door, both locked.  He knocked but got no response, Once… Twice.... and he heard it echo through the empty house.  He collapsed on the steps and searched his mind for his last memory, the last thing before darkness, and silence. It was a window, an audience, a fire, nightmares.  The room he was in... the window had broken. He remembered the glass bouncing upon the carpet.  Trevor walked around to the other side of the house and there it was, the window; but not broken.  “One of these will put me right back into my room, they must have already fixed the window.” He thought. “Which one was my room?” He took a chance, smashed out one of the windows and began to climb inside. But once he had climbed through the window, a whole new type of fear and despair over took him.  There was no welcome home, no rejoicing in his well-being.  Instead: A new man sat in his chair, with wires coming from his head.  Trevor’s heart was beating so fast it hurt.  The machines had always taken care of him.  What was he to do now that he’d been replaced? He slowly crept around the chair, his hands shaking, heart pounding, head throbbing, vision narrowing. Until he saw the face of the new man in the chair. “It’s me…” He said aloud.  “I’m… me.” The man in the chair did not acknowledge his presence.  Although staring right at the spot Trevor stood, he did not see him.  He looked right through.
The room then went all too suddenly silent. The machines had noticed and acknowledged Trevor’s presence, a moment passed. One of those moments that eat away years. They responded with anger.  Trevor heard buzzing, saw red lights. They chased him back out the window he came in, only now; on the way out he fell two stories to the ground.  He lay in the leaves winded from the fall, and he had sliced his foot open on a shard of glass while falling out. Trevor knew the woods surrounding the house went on for miles, maybe tens of miles… maybe hundreds of miles. He also knew the machines would chase him, hunt him down, and punish him. Kill him.  They would never give up.  Despite this knowledge he decided to run anyway, in an attempt to defy inevitability. 
            As he ran past the small graveyard he had escaped from he tripped, landing near one of one of the other graves.  The name on the tombstone read: ‘Andy’.  The noise of the machines giving chase arose behind him, he clamored to his feet and began to run.  His subconscious scoffed at how clichĂ© it had been for him to trip and fall whilst being chased.  He ignored it. He kept running until he could no longer hear them. He kept running until he had no breathe left in him. He kept running until he could run no more, and yet still, he kept running. 

[Time passed]
 
            Alone Trevor sat in the cold damp woods.  Hardly clothed, hardly fed, barely alive.  Two weeks he has survived on his own.  Evading the machines, eating whatever he could find, drinking from puddles and streams.  Fourteen days alone, without any assistance from the machines. Considering how his life was lived previously; all watched over by machines of loving grace...  it has been extremely difficult.  He has noticed the forest here is not like any he has known.  The light never seems to completely go away, night time never fully embraces the trees.  Some of the trees are a little too perfect, and they stand unwavering against the horizon, never ending.  A low hum remains constant.  As if this forest were run on batteries. The trees sway, even though there is no wind.
            He knows he must be cautious, every breath bringing him closer to his last.  He can feel the machines tracking his every step.  He can hear the pounding of his heart: Louder, louder, so loud it almost takes over his ears.  His feet and hands bloody. His eyes are tired, his muscles are tired, his entire body is sore and rotting.  He wishes the machines could make it all stop, take it all away.  He almost wants to surrender and let it all be over.  But they are no longer on his side, and the fear of dying infinitely, and forever is not something he wants to face.  His head pounding, bombarding the inside of his skull with painful thoughts.  So tired, but to rest would surely mean capture.  So he keeps moving.  The forest itself seems to be keeping track of him. Something in the shadows always lurking. 
            Trevor’s fear is the only thing that keeps him going.  It keeps him company at [night], keeps him alert, alive.  But its making him so crazy.  He can feel the insanity boasting inside. Begging to kick its way out screaming. His forearms are covered in scratches where he will not stop dragging his nails. The depression is kicking in (five down, only one more stage to go). Things will never be the same. 
            Trevor’s body is only human, with no help he starts to drag.  His eyelids start to drop.  His body becomes overheated, overworked, dehydrated, hungry, tired, dying.  His head swoons, the woods spin and dance. 

He falls to his knees.... 

Then to his hands…

Then collapses over on his side…

Lying fetal in the never decomposing leaves.

            Footsteps behind him.  [Footsteps beside him].  Shadows swarming all around him. They make no noise and move like ghosts. The silhouette of a man slowly rises from beneath the leaves and  towers over him. Trevor realizes now that this is all the creature is. A silhouette no matter the light.  Smaller shadows emerge from behind the trees and lurch around him.  Trevor is almost happy to have been caught by the shadows, instead of the machines.  The smaller shadows bounce and dance around him, pointing and laughing. Cheerfully goading him. They scold him. They join hands and begin to circle around him.

They chant:
“Your life, your love
The sky above
Falling, waiting, crushing, hating
The emptiness hold hands with darkness
The lives you lost have come undone
Open your heart…
For here we come”

-It repeats over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over-

Getting faster and faster until its nothing more than a noisy babble.  Laughter rings out over everything.  Millions of children laughing. The wind picks up, the forest glows, the trees lean over to hear Trevor's voice. They wait for him to speak. The small childlike shadows spin faster in a ring around Trevor. They become a blur. The large humanoid silhouette raises its arms to the sky. A hole; darker, appears where its face should be, and things begin to disappear. The stars zip like lines of light into the hole. The leaves upon the ground lift and are sucked in as well, but the trees stay put. Waiting to hear Trevor's voice. The small shadows now begin to sing: “Ring around the Rosey, Pockets full of poison, ashes, ashes you all fall dead.” Trevor opens his mouth, he expels every ounce of noise he can muster.

            His screams cannot be heard.  His body will never be found.


                                                                                                            ….To be continued


Saturday, January 15, 2011

  
So, in the last 3 days I have 3 friends that have been hurt, or wronged in some manner. They deserve the right to help, healthcare, safety, security, etc etc.  

But the American healthcare, police, emergency services, government, laws, mindset, wellness, corporations, employers, stability, economy, balance of power are so goddamn FUCKED and out of control that they have been mindfucked into thinking these things:

1: They do not deserve it because it was either their fault or wasn't THAT bad. 
2: They will just get by, because they cannot afford to be healthy, happy, safe, and secure
3: Nobody will care enough to go to bat for them
4: They will be denied services
5: There is no point because they are helpless and whatever bullshit happens they just have to TRY to survive. 

Jesus motherfucking christcock monkey cunt!  Am I the only one that sees this as a GRIEVOUS wrong?  A seriously ass backwards way to live?  A pointless exercise in the furtherance of human misery? 

Friend 1:


When somebody hits you with a fucking CAR; not only do you deserve to go to the hospital to get your injuries checked, you are owed a replacement of whatever equipment or personal items that may have been damaged or destroyed by some  asshole being a worthless fuckwit, not paying attention, and also generally failing at life.  YOU ARE FUCKING OWED!!!!  This is not a questionable thing.  This is fact.  You call the fucking POLICE and make them wait there, and you make the police work for YOU. That’s what you fucking pay them for with your taxes. You get the information from the person that hit you and their insurance to pay for your health, safety and possessions.  That’s why people who drive are FORCED to pay for insurance.  In case during the process of being a dimwit goat testicle they harm someone.  You don't let this soulless assyfuck twat just go about their merry way and remain content with being fucked.  GODDAMNIT fight for your personal safety and possessions!!!!!! 

Friend 2:


            When you are at work, and you hurt yourself; you don’t go home and elevate your leg and try to make it better with pretend gumdrops, rainbows and a winning combination of alcohol and bandages.  You GO TO THE FUCKING HOSPITAL, you get taken care of, and file a workman’s comp claim.  They HAVE to fucking pay for it.  Do you know what that is?  It’s the fucking LAW goddamnit.  They cannot deny you, and if they do, you sue the shit out of them, charge them for your legal fees and you fucking WIN. 

Friend 3:

            If you get hurt outside of work; GO TO THE FUCKING HOSPITAL!  I know it is “Expensive”.  But FUCK them.  Go anyway with the intention of NEVER PAYING THEM A DIME.  Get treatment, and on your way out TELL them you will never pay them a fucking dime, EVER!  As well as to go fuck themselves.  For good measure piss on the desk and fart in the salad bar. There is nothing they can do about it.  It is illegal for them to deny treatment if the condition could result in either death, or further injury (They will not treat you if you have a tummy ache, but HAVE to treat you if you have, say, cut the shit out of yourself and need some fucking stitches).

"For every person who dies in a terrorist attack globally, 58 people in the US die due to lack of healthcare"

Invade a hospital!
            

            Instead of helping the American people, our “Leaders” are more interested in going to war for someone else.  We have been brainwashed into being afraid of a fucking cardboard BOX.  Are you out for a walk in a nice neighborhood?  Did you come across a cardboard box, or maybe a book bag?  JESUS FUCKING CHRIST RUN FOR YOU GODDAMN LIVES BECAUSE ITS EVERYTHING BAD YOU HAVE EVER IMAGINED STUFFED INSIDE IT WAITING FOR YOU TO TOUCH IT AND UNLEASH IT, DESTROYING EVERYTHING YOU LOVE ALONG WITH NOT ONLY THE VERY FABRIC OF TIME AND SPACE BUT ALSO THE AMERICAN WAY OF LIFE!!!!  You have no healthcare because oil and Iraqi’s are more important things to spend money to secure. You have no healthcare because Insurance companies and the medicinal field pays a small portion (billions of dollars) of its annual profit to pay to get our "Choice” of leaders in office. We have no choice in who our leader is.  Corporations choose a couple they can handle for us to choose from, and then throw us a feel good election so we can feel like we were a part of the system.  We did good. We made a choice for the future.  Where do you think the money for those men’s campaigns came from?  Do you not think that the views behind the money that paid to get them into office has influence over their decisions and actions?  We are lead by a puppet.  Our futures are decided by the small percentage of the human population that holds 90% of the earth’s wealth.  And two of the sources of said men’s wealth is Oil (gasoline), and in the US: Medicine (Healthcare).  Yet we continue to not only tolerate it, but support this evilness. This rancid spiral into the depths of misery and dependence.  “It’s just the way it is.” Pardon me… but no, it’s not just the “way it is”. It’s the way we ALLOW it to be.  We allow ourselves as humans be taken advantage of by the lesser men.  Men who like to pretend they have authority and power over another living thing.  NOTHING in the 'verse has any authority over a thing with free will and cognizance. NOTHING!  Can I say that one more fucking time?  NOTHING!  AT ALL!  EVER!  


But...


You are not free.  You never have been free.  There is no such thing as true freedom in the world today.  Everyone is under the control of someone else.  Ruled by the iron fist of fear!  However, this lack of freedom is by your own choosing. You choose to abandon your TRUE freedom because you are afraid of the consequences of fighting for it. Might you die?  Might you be wounded?  Might you lose all of your possessions? Might you be taken prisoner? Yes, you might.  So what’s more important to you?  It’s okay, you don’t have to answer that… your choice is glaringly obvious.
            

                                                                                 FEAR: is the most valuable resource in the universe.